Running 13km, trying to find a comfortable marathon pace, felt a bit like Groundhog Day today! I ran exactly the same last week ;) But after today, I'm onto the "real" last week of tapering.
I ended up running 22km on Wednesday, the next day my marathon running mother, friend, school mother ... told me I was silly and shouldn't have, whoops! too late ;) Honestly though, I felt I needed to - even if it was just a mental thing. I wasn't totally silly, I had two options when I got to about 20km, carrying on the long way home and making it 25, or going the short way and making it 22 - I was starting to feel tired and a bit sore about the butt/hips so I chose the shorter option. I ran it pretty slowly, Deirdre ran the first 9km with me and kept me slow (she is recovering from her marathon just over a week ago), and then I kept about the same pace for the rest of it.
How am I dealing with the disappointment? Pretty well actually. Trying to explain to "painful" Janice at work, when she was doing her usual talking over the top of me with a group of us, that no, I wasn't "hiding" my disappointment, I was disappointed, I can't change it, I've moved on and I'm looking to the future, and looking forward to what might be in the future. London isn't going anywhere, we'll get there one day. In fact, I've just ticked the withdrawal part of the my registration form and written a letter to go with it, and I'm sending it off this morning. The travel agent, who hasn't been particularly helpful, told me they only defer overseas entries, but I can't see anywhere on the rules or website that actually says that - so I'm sending it in, with a bit of a sob-story (but not too sobby! LOL) and am hoping that they will be nice and defer until next year.
Meanwhile, I need my body AND my mind to be ready for next week, so I'm refocussing on that and I'm looking forward to being able to call myself a marathoner :)
Meanwhile I'll leave you with the lyrics of "The Climb" ... Mylie Cyrus does nothing for me (especially with 8yo and 11yo girls at home who always seems to have those high pitched sweety yucky voices on TV) ... but the lyrics of this song really speak to me :)
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
Happy running this weekend everyone :)
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Can totally relate to the Miley Cyrus song. Having an 11 year old girl means Miley is blaring out often and I hate it but when my daughter left that song on my i-pod and it came on during a bad run I fell in love with the lyrics and I listened to it at least 5 times on that run! Great song. Good luck in the marathon. Sorry you didn't make it to London (my home town) but Rotorua is a great marathon. I'll be there! :)
ReplyDeleteGiven the enormity of the situation that kept you from making it to the Marathon (and the number of Brits still stranded on your side of the world not able to get home), I hope that they will defer your entry. But your positiveness in the disappointment has been inspiring. Have a great Rotorua marathon. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteIt is so cool you can keep a positive attitude. I am sure you are going to do great in Rotorua and next year you are going to have tons of fun at London M. I cannot imagine them not deferring your entry.
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to read your Rotorua race report!
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